What kind of freaks me out (with my history and all) is that I hover around the obsessive love with Josh and do some of the same things as Bella does. Twilight scared the CRAP out of me, let me tell you. "OMG, am I being Bella-type codependent and not even realizing it?!?!" Finally I realized that no, I'm fine, because Josh is not a controlling vampire (in fact, he hates vampires) and I'm aware of my situation. Bella, however, is not fine and is totally unaware. Argh.